Birthday presents.

I got my period for Jay's first birthday.

Sigh.

I cried. 

This, and him.  It was all a bit much.

Did you listen to that tune on my last post?  Go ahead.  Bear the commercial to hear it, it's short.  Have a cry with me.

I started to supplement him and it was a slippery slope.  He stopped asking and I stopped offering.  It was a heartbreaking call but I have some medications I am taking that are new and not tested.

Sigh.

Breastfeeding was the greatest gift to me ever.  Well, you know what I mean.

It makes me ache to be so happy.  

All my best to you guys.  May your happiness make you cry today.

One.

Someday drawing you different, may I be weaved in your hair.

My guy is going to be one this wk.

What.

If you had any idea how often I think about everyone still in the battle, anyone who recently lost a battle, anyone currently winning the battle, won the battle, managing the life after the battle, well, you would feel pretty loved.

Those with the special hard losses, you get it all over again.

I want this same peace, joy and exhaustion for all of you.

Love, 
Roccie

Here is why you don't think negative things about someone

My MIL fell down our stairs and broke her neck.  Surgery was yesterday and she did well.

Inpatient rehab for 2 weeks follows when she is released from the hospital.  Release date unknown.

Horrible neck brace to wear for 2 months.

I cannot see anyone getting on a plane with that thing.  

I cannot see anyone flying after such trauma and risking air turbulence.

In other news, I just started smoking.