Does the issue need a final analysis? A post game review? Do I need to size up my results as compared to my expectations?
I wish I had been a more frequent blogger to document the transition. But I don't know if I could have done it. How do you witness paint dry? One day, it is just dry. You might have noticed the tacky stage where the paint is sticky. I think that was what most fascinated me. The transition stage.
It was his nail beds.
I kind of obsessed on his nail beds.
Obsess isn't the right word. It just got on my radar. I cannot explain it. I noticed it and since I did, I would come back to it. Check it out. Confirm my observations. Then I would move on.
I don't notice it anymore, this is written from memory.
Jay's nail beds are lovely. They are long and narrow. He looks as though he could be a world renowned pianist one day. Elegant hands, even for a baby.
My hands are mannish. Man hands, right out of Seinfeld. I have wide, short nail beds. Even with a manicure (Oh! The Good Old Days!), they still look quite masculine. It doesn't bother me. It is just me. Toddlerina has hands that look like mine. Jaybird looks different.
And that is the end of the differences I have cataloged.
He is so busy being himself, I can never really see him as anything else aside from Just Jay. The same goes for Toddlerina. She is so busy taking up so much space I never look at her as an extension of me. I never did.
I thought I would feel this way, but how do you know. I expected donor eggs to slide away into the non issue bin. I am amazed just how cleanly and quickly it happened. It was almost as if the nail beds were there to provide a point of reference. To show the distance from here to there was not that great, if it even existed at all.