Mostly headaches

I have been freakishly fine.  My head aches 24/7, but I dont feel nutty.

Crap.  Maybe it isnt working....

Into the stirrups tomorrow for labs u/s anyhow.  Whew.

Think I will drop the bomb on the boss tomorrow, explain all the late mornings and the days I need off after retrieval and transfer.  Should do this before Evil Twin Lupron Roccie takes over and I tell him to take this job....

Maybe it is working. 

Day One and the ERA

Still have that big ass follicle, but we started Lupron today.  

I am in a good place right now.  Yes, I know the Lupron loonies will kill it, but I am happily buzzing around this wk.

We went away to stay in a cottage on A Great Lake.  It is not like us at all.  Poverty stricken by IVF, we dont do much of anything.  

We used a rental by owner website and sent a low ball offer for the upcoming wkend and it was accepted.  Great move.  Best move yet.  If you are already in debt, will another $500 crush you?  Of course not.  

There was a hot tub.  Oh, the JOY when he couldnt go in!  The swimmers cant take the heat and we need a good sample in a couple wks.  Ha!  I may not have wine or coffee, but for one wkend I had a fancy hot tub under the stars while he sat curbside. 

Sounds the All Clear

Giant follicle screwing up my plans.  Not suppressed enough.  

One more wk of BCP.

Heads up on the Lupron

I go in tomorrow to find out our protocol.  I only know we will be micro-dose Lupron.  

The first retrieval was what I can only imagine was the standard Lupron gig.  We had 8 eggs, but they were not in great shape.  We ended up transferring 3 on day 3.  I was so naive.  Now I know how to read that writing on the wall. 

After the first IVF it was BFN and nothing to freeze, the RE drops donor egg into the conversation.  Casually.  Like I might consider additional highlights for spring or perhaps some donor eggs?

New RE and new program for IVF2.  The micro-dose didnt give us a lot more eggs.  This time they were decent quality and gave us excellent to very good embryos for a day 5 xfer.

Anyhow, I came here originally to give a heads up: The Mega Bitch is on her way to town.  I felt I needed to apologize in advance for the ass I become on Lupron.

But then I remembered I was amongst friends, who are just as much of a nightmare on the stuff as I am.

OH I love that feeling!  A blog junkie is born.

Sample Man delivers the goods

Sample submitted for review. We have a little male factor too, but since we already have The Unexplained, does it really warrant being listed? Poor bastard will probably be taken off of his Flomax. It makes it very difficult to drive anywhere with him over 20 minutes away.

My RE is part of a big operation. I called around looking for free meds. It was humiliating - but when I scored some Menopur, I did get a little thrill. Pride doesn't live here anymore.

Panic.

I know I am too tightly wound. Perhaps this is the Unexplained in Unexplained Infertility.

I read someone who stopped coffee 2 months before retrieval. I cant get it to stop festering.....

I wish I had done that. I am slightly pissed off at my RE for not telling me to do it. I carry freaking crystals in my pockets for crying out loud, you think I wouldn't kill the caffeine???

If RE tells me it only takes one good egg one more time, I might throw up.

Started acupunture again

I am allowed to be sad, but not allowed to think negative. Really.

Post Mother's Day update

I was a complete pig on Mothers Day. Not my proudest moment. It had nothing to do with champagne or sleeping in. I owe my husband a car wash as I chucked half a misto at it. Long story. Such a crap wkend, I am drinking coffee this morning. I will quit tomorrow.

Happy Belated Mothers Day to those in progress. Redefine. Peace to you, sisters of Lupron.

Misto

going to starbucks's because i CAN.

Small sacrifice

Mother's Day. Always a mixed emotion day.

Going out in style - coffee and mimosas in bed, followed by caffeine withdrawal and sour looks at husband if he thinks he can drink in front of me.

IVF, Take 3.5

• Dark Ages.
• Pull goalie.
• Try, try, try for 1 year+. Welcome to the world of IVF. Do not pass IUI. Go directly to ICSI.
• Full Cycle, Round 1 - Hurrah, we have insurance! No baby.
• Full Cycle, Round 2 - How the hell did we burn through $25k? Self-pay. Baby girl home: happy, healthy.
• Frozen, Round 1 - Have one, transfer one. Pregnant. Blood levels look good. Never find heart beat.
• Full Cycle, Round 3 - Here we go.