Wisdom words from the thera-puncturist, but I bet at least some of you automatically blurted "thats what she said", right?
I went in for a session today feeling I needed more the therapy than the puncture. I feel a little detached from this round. The normal me bleeds and sweats the details. I am just too busy to get under it all this time.
I cannot help but to feel guilty that I am not jamming bamboo under my nails to make this happen. Isn't the intensity of suffering directly proportionate to the percentage of success?
If it were only that simple, we would all have babies. I still cannot shake the feeling I should be forcing mediation, drinking ass flavored tea, avoiding wheat or air, and choking down some damn Royal Jelly even though we are donor egg.
Today my acupuncturist told me being present was the best practice I could follow.
She compared it with surfing. You can sit on the shore and watch the surfers move through the waves. They make it look easy. Enjoy the show because the minute you try to get on top of it, everything falls apart.
I don't do her story justice, but she told me not to try and get on top of it. Align yourself with your goal and then let go.
I hope this one finds a little place to curl up with our friend egghunt and keep her warm.