Sunday, October 26, 2014

PPD. She beckons.

Hi old friends.

How I miss you guys. Planning to jump back into the world of posting, sharing and supporting. I've been gone so long.  My heart is heavy thinking of the times you may have needed me but I wasn't there. Or here.

Gotta give to take, right?  Make deposits to afford withdrawals.  I'm afraid I'm breaking that rule. I could use a little backing right now.

The Blues. I feel them lurking. Ah, shitballs. No autocorrect I don't mean spitballs. I mean fuck. I got not time for the post partum depression.

Haven't told Rocco yet. Apprehensive. Not a good sign, huh?  Probably all the more reason I need to open up. Maybe next week.

How you been. Give me a one sentence update please if you're still here?  I'm so very overwhelmed by my Giant Unread Reader Feed.  Tell me what I can do for you to make it up to you.

Much love,
Roccie
Mother of a five month old
Mother of a almost 3 year old
Mother of a 5 year old
Mother to Mannie who is gone

23 comments:

  1. Ah, Roccie. Good to hear your update but sorry you're dealing with PPD. Take care of yourself. Here if you need to talk.

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  2. Miss you! I am happy to see you poppin back to say hello, although I am heavy with the news that you have FUCKING DEPRESSED lurking.

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  3. Still reading. Still supporting.

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  4. Here to support you! Take time for yourself- you need and deserve it!

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    1. Thanks Muriel.

      Get yoself a blog man.

      :)

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  5. Here if you want to talk. Been there. Love you.

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  6. Here sending love to you now and always.

    5 months old?!?! Wow!

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  7. Giant Unread Reader Feed? "Mark all as read" is your friend. :)

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  8. Praying for you. I had PPD with Little K and it sucked. Here to support you in any way possible.

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  9. Welcome back and f&ck! Sorry about the PPD! Take as many withdrawals as you need!

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  10. Oy, have the talk, Roccie. Take care of yourself, mama. Those little ones need you.

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  11. I've missed hearing from you. Sorry to hear you are struggling; I'm here to "listen" if you need it.

    We are well. Busy as all get out but well. :-)

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  12. Still here, mother to an almost 4 month old

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  13. I still check to see if you are around. ~N

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  14. Mother to an almost 4 year old after IF and multiple miscarriage. Had PPD (more anxiety than depression though). Found a great organisation that provided support group, counselling and various therapies and took a very small dose of an SSRI that deals with anxiety and depression and came out the other side fairly quickly after that. So sorry you're going through it - open up to those who can help (doing it here was a great start!).

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  15. Always such a lovely, lovely thing to see Roccie in my blog feed. Always glad and comforted to find your words here.
    Sending love and good thoughts. I know you to be stronger than PPD and any other acronym for awful things. Just remember to ask for help. (and I should take my own advice. Truly).

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  16. Still here. Many hugs to you. You've gotten through the darkness before and you will triumph again, even though it feels impossible at times. Love you!

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  17. Be kind to yourself. Three young children is HARD.

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  18. Lurker, whose still here. Good to hear from you and best of luck beating back the ppd. I enjoy your voice tremendously. You've given enough well in advance to fund a lifetime of withdrawals.

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  19. I managed a 3 month old in there somewhere. Hi. Missed you, doll. Do come back and join us.

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  20. I too have been absent, but am trying to catch up and read and write again. Busy with a 3 month old and. 2 year old, and the 4 year old who looks down on us. Sorry you are feeling down. I think I have some kind of anxiety thing going on but for now I am stuffing it with food.... not so good really. Take care.

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  21. Missed you - sorry to hear you're wrestling with PPD. C is 22 months. After two horrible, devastating, unexplainable miscarriages trying to have a sibling and 2 BFNs, we've decided not to risk our remaining embryos in me and are moving forward with surrogacy.

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