Friday, December 17, 2010

The yin and the yang


Who is going to get all this work, shopping and cooking done cause it isn't me.  Bleh.  I have an astronomical amount of work to do right now.

Can I get an amen from my sisters?

I feel a little under it all.  I don't have much to say.  It certainly isn't interesting.  Do you really want to see a list of all the crap I haven't even started yet?  Nay.


All that complaining you just read?  That isn't me.  I went to see Dr. Crazy Meds yesterday and switched to a new prescription.  Stay tuned for a much more enjoyable Roccie.

I am not in a place where I can really write, but I can show you just the girl who can.  Please step over to my friend Rosie's house.  She sent me the spirit of Christmas in a box.

The essence of friendship in a manila envelope.

Hope hanging on a tree.

Rosie you are one in a million and I love you.

Thank you for everything.

If you want to know what I look like, you can see me in the red ornament.

I feel like a Led Zeppelin album cover.

Hell, yeah.


  1. Amen, sister! Love the ornament pic of psychadelic you!

    Roccie, if you e-mail me (, I'll forward you the link to the podcast of that bloodboiling radio show...I haven't heard the actual show - all I described in my post was the teaser! This guy (Host #1) has a weekend show in Chicago, btw, on WGN, but I'm ashamed to say he's Canadian. I'm listening to the podcast right now - GRRRRRRRRRRRRR! You have to download it and then start listening at the 32nd minute.
    Love to you,

  2. I read Rosie's beautiful letter to you tonight. Your candor and humor and awesomeness make people adore you, Rocc. What a good apple Rosie is, and I adore the ornament. Again, awesome.

    Bugger that you've so much annoying crap to tackle. Nose-crinkle.

  3. Oh Roccie. Sweetheart. I'm sorry the Yin is so big. Hoping dearly that a quick change in medication does help lighten your load.

    That xmas decoration is freaking awesome. The kindness of strangers is sometimes the best kind.


  4. The title of your future memoir: "I Feel Like a Led Zeppelin Album Cover."

    That Christmas ornament warms the cockles of my cold shriveled heart.

    Whenever you feel up to writing--we'll be here.

  5. EEE! I was so excited to see a post by you in my reader : ) I'm sorry it is and continues to be hard. You have my love.

  6. Amen.

    Rosie is awesome, just like you! Love the ornament.

    So happy to see a Roccie post.

  7. You've been on my mind so much lately, its good to see you back. It's such a stressful time of year and add in some grief it's a wonder that any of us are functioning! Hoping the new medications are a better fit for you and hopeful we'll see you more around these parts...have missed you a lot! Rosie sounds like an incredibly lovely person, love the ornament.

  8. Amen sistah. Go order a damned dinner from Whole Foods and don't let this damned holiday stress you out. I've done that the last 3 years and I have no reason to do it myself this year.

    What an amazingly special and meaningful ornament...I had a hard time not crying reading her story. I pray that it brings you the same happy ending. :-)

  9. I am so with you, sister. One of the items on my to-do list is to find my to-do list.

    That ornament story restores my faith in humanity. A friend of mine gave me something really special and symbolic when I was in the quest for H -- this makes me think I need to pass that on too, keep the good juju going.

  10. hey roccie - rosie totally rocks!!! and the picture on that ornament is exactly how i pictured you to look. what a coincidence :o)

    i'm sorry things are so rough right now. i'm hoping with everything in me that christmas next year will find you in such a better place. with either a baby in your belly, or preferrably a newborn by your side to complete your family of 4. have faith. and if that's too hard for you right now, i'll have some extra for you :o) big hugs!!! xoxo.

  11. Your eventual sitcom should be named 'Everyone Loves Roccie'! That's one I for one will be watching!

    Stay strong Roc!

    LS x

  12. Hey Roccie...hope the new meds will help. Thinking of you and wishing you a Merry Christmas.

  13. ps - i added the requested belly pics to my page :o)

  14. You've got my Amen, sister. Wishing you smooth efficiency as you get all that stuff done before Santa comes down the chimney.
    What a wonderful gift you received from Rosie. I was so touched to read the letter she wrote you. It sounds like it really moved you, and I'm glad for that.
    I keep you in my thoughts and send you hugs.

  15. Wishing you strength through the holidays. (((hugs)))

  16. I always think your complaining is totally justified and normal (um, not that you complain a lot, but on those rare occasions when you do...), but that's 'cause I'm a bitchy whiner. It must be so very rough and disconcerting to find yourself acting out of character. Screw the things that need to get done. If there's food and shelter, y'all are good.

  17. Great ornament. I always pictured you with angel wings:)

    I hope your doc gets the meds sorted out pronto - I understand that it can be very rocky transitioning, and at the start. Time for some smooth sailing, right into a light-filled 2011.

    Good luck with the chores. Amen, sister. Amen.

  18. Good luck with the new meds - hope they do the trick!

  19. You are the houses of the holy. Or the ornament of the holy. Or the holy ornament of houses...I digress.

    Amen. That is indeed hope hanging on a tree. What an amazing present of hope. I want very much for that hope to arrive on those angel wings. It will happen. I will believe nothing less on your behalf.

  20. i just realized that you weren't in my blogroll and it pissed me off so much that i got out of my virus induced haze and logged on to remedy the situation. so now all is right with the world.
    im a tad bit anal.
    i could simply not have lived through the past year without copious amounts of ADs. they have saved me and i don't buy into the whole placebo effect that some talk about. i hope that you find yourself in a gentler space as the days go by. i love your ornament :)

  21. Hey roccie. Just checking in on you. THank you for your sweet words recently. You're beautiful. xxx

  22. Hi Roccie. Just checking in since you have been away for a while. I hope you're OK--hang in there!

  23. Thank you for your comment on my blog, such incredibly true words!
    Just wanted to stop by and say hello and that I hope you're doing okay. I've missed you dearly my friend and have thought of you often...I hope life is being kind to you.