Roccie Road: And then the place was crawling with kids

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

And then the place was crawling with kids

Thinking of any readers who ache to call the goblin at the front door tonight their own.

Pulling for our adoptive families in process and in wait.

Pulling for our pregnant families who watch the toilet paper like their own personal Halloween horror show.

Thinking of families who are complete, but working to pull it all together the way they want it and the way it should be.

Someone bought my latte in line before me today at the S'bucks. I play my good deed forward to all of you.

Happy Halloween and Happy Family Management.

Much love,

Roccie
(Who clearly will be doing her hair more frequently in pursuit of more free drinks.)

14 comments:

RebeccaOctober 31, 2012 at 12:28 PM
Hoping that your night goes well with no tricks.
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AugustaOctober 31, 2012 at 12:47 PM
sending love, dear woman.
Happy Halloween to you and your wee goblins.
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AnonymousOctober 31, 2012 at 1:11 PM
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3
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nurslouisaOctober 31, 2012 at 1:16 PM
Nice work on the free-lishous drink! Happy Halloween!!
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JBOctober 31, 2012 at 1:39 PM
I want so much to dress as a nun this year (37.5 weeks pregnant....). But I am a model of restraint. Happy Halloween to the Roccies and Roccos. Free lattes for all.
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Mrs. MisfitsOctober 31, 2012 at 3:48 PM
Happy Halloween, dear. To those goblins you are keeping, too!
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KayBeeOctober 31, 2012 at 4:57 PM
Enjoy your goblins! Still waiting for mine! Thanks for the love.
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PatienceOctober 31, 2012 at 5:20 PM
Thanks Roccie. I wish I could tell you how much this post meant to me tonight. Thanks for paying it forward... I'm off to do the same!
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AnonymousNovember 1, 2012 at 8:09 AM
The biggest gift of my life came on Monday. I'm so incredibly happy to be done with the anxiety Induced toilet paper watch forever.

I hope you had a fun day with your little ones!
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bunnyNovember 1, 2012 at 11:54 AM
Brought tears to my eyes. Thank you for remembering those of us with our big piles of babies.
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siennaNovember 1, 2012 at 2:08 PM
xoxoxoxo. boohoo, i'm going in the opposite direction from where i think you are, over the ocean and then some :o(
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lady pumpkinNovember 1, 2012 at 10:35 PM
Love to you, woman. Lots of it.
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AdeleNovember 2, 2012 at 5:48 PM
Right back atcha. I hope it was a good, sane evening for you (and for everyone).
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MichaelaNovember 10, 2012 at 10:22 AM
I am praying by next Halloween I have a goblin to call my own!
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Well, how did I get here?

- Pull goalie.

- Dark Ages. A stillborn loss I don't talk about much here. I lost the plot for a while.

- Try, try, try for 1 year. Welcome to the world of IVF. Do not pass IUI. Go directly to ICSI.

- Full Cycle, Round 1 - Hurrah, we have insurance! No baby. Nothing to freeze.

- Full Cycle, Round 2 - How the hell did we burn through $25k of insurance coverage? Self-pay. Change to microdose Lupron. Baby girl home: healthy, happy.

- Frozen, Round 1 - Have one, transfer one. BFP. All three beta levels look good. First u/s doesn't show a fetal pole. Second u/s never finds heart beat. Miscarriage completed with medication.

- Try for Full Cycle, Round 3 - Poor response with only 2 follicles after microdose Lupron, increased from 350 to 450 Follistim and 150 Menopur. Convert to IUI. Lame counts, 15 million. BFN.

- Canceled The Final Full Cycle after estrogen priming with Ganirelix the month prior to retrieval. Starting at 450 Follistim and 150 Menopur. One follicle measured at final u/s. BFN.

- Crap. Diminished ovarian reserve at 39.

- Transfer one beautiful blastocyst from a donor egg. BFN. What. But this is DE, right??? BFN.

- DE FET canceled due to a cyst in January. Lots of Lupron for no good reason. We tried again for the FET in February. Another cyst. Finally cyst free and set for March. 50%-50% chance of pregnancy.

- BFP and a heartbeat followed by Giant SCH Scare the very next day. Last bleed was at 13 wks.

- Added marginal placenta previa to the mix at the 20 week level II ultrasound. Gah. A follow up appointment four weeks later shows the PP gone and the uterus growth resolved the issue.

- Welcome Baby Jay at 39+ weeks via scheduled repeat c-section. A boy. A boy!!

- Considering the future of our frozen embryos. Letting "Party of Four" sink in.

- Starting the process to find a family for our remaining embryos. Feeling perfect about it. UPDATE. That was a total lie. I am freaking the fuck out. UPDATE. I got this. UPDATE. Total melt down. FINAL UPDATE. Recovered, with a tender heart.

- Find a magnificent family to accept our remaining embryos. She is pregnant, first try. Joy.

- For the love of all that is holy, I am pregnant. We made this baby like animals. No RE involved.

- Explore the possibilities of Down Syndrome. Find a beautiful community fiercely dedicated to their children. We are prepared to welcome home a baby with Down Syndrome, but it was not meant to be us.

Welcome to my family: one from my old eggs and one from a donor. A bonus from my very old eggs and the Two Backed Monster. Irrelevant, huh? Joy.