Roccie Road: Carry on, Warrior.

Friday, October 11, 2013

Carry on, Warrior.

Looks like we are just past 8 1/2 weeks.

Normal heart rate, which I heard over the speakers this morning. I saw the little figure before I saw the heartbeat and panicked, but she found it quickly.

I have taken 3 pregnancy tests since we last spoke.

ps - Title homage to Glennon Melton, my favorite. Please enjoy her with me here.

19 comments:

gwinneOctober 11, 2013 at 12:09 PM
Carry on, indeed.

Congrats!
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AdeleOctober 11, 2013 at 12:55 PM
Holy crapoley, Roccie:)

So glad to read this news. Sending you good, good thoughts.
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Good Egg HatchedOctober 11, 2013 at 1:22 PM
Um, what happened here?! This is amazing, wonderful, encouraging. Do people really ride off into the sunset?? Thanks for reminding me that sometimes random acts of grace really do happen to people who deserve them. Thinking of you and that little rainbow baby!
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MoOctober 11, 2013 at 2:14 PM
wonderful. really, really wonderful : )
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dspenceOctober 11, 2013 at 4:43 PM
I am so glad that things are continuing to go well. Praise God! This is so amazing and wonderful!
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AugustaOctober 11, 2013 at 5:19 PM
GREAT news, Roccie! I'm really glad all is well in your ute, with miracle, warrior fetus. sending hugs to all of you.
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StacieOctober 11, 2013 at 6:15 PM
:) Yea for good news!
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DoraOctober 11, 2013 at 6:37 PM
Oh, that glorious sound! :-)
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siennaOctober 11, 2013 at 8:56 PM
Great great news Roccie :o) with P, I took a pregnancy test every 3-4 days for quite a while. Hubby finally made me stop :o)
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JodieOctober 11, 2013 at 11:36 PM
Congrates, this is awesome news!
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LibbyOctober 12, 2013 at 9:29 AM
Wonderful and amazing all wrapped up together! Thank you also for the awesome comment ;)
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Mrs. MisfitsOctober 12, 2013 at 12:20 PM
Wonderful. Fight on warrior!
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UnknownOctober 12, 2013 at 4:22 PM
Whoa! Awesome! Carry on!
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Mrs. LemonOctober 14, 2013 at 9:04 AM
AWESOME< AWESOME< AWESOME!
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AnonymousOctober 14, 2013 at 9:29 AM
That's right, Carry ON!!!!
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GurleeOctober 15, 2013 at 11:53 AM
Hot damn.

What incredible news. I can't wait to hear more!
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rebeccaOctober 16, 2013 at 2:04 PM
Glennon is also one of my absolute favorites!!! Have you read her book? It's fantastic and so inspiring. I seriously often think what would glennon do in situations. Love, love, love this news. Woo-hoo
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CWritesOctober 16, 2013 at 8:14 PM
That Momastery post resonated. Thank you! Would not have found it w/o your lead. Thinking of you enjoying the sounds of in utero heartbeats without nightly P shots and inability to run down stairs during the daytime.
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CWritesOctober 16, 2013 at 8:18 PM
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Well, how did I get here?

- Pull goalie.

- Dark Ages. A stillborn loss I don't talk about much here. I lost the plot for a while.

- Try, try, try for 1 year. Welcome to the world of IVF. Do not pass IUI. Go directly to ICSI.

- Full Cycle, Round 1 - Hurrah, we have insurance! No baby. Nothing to freeze.

- Full Cycle, Round 2 - How the hell did we burn through $25k of insurance coverage? Self-pay. Change to microdose Lupron. Baby girl home: healthy, happy.

- Frozen, Round 1 - Have one, transfer one. BFP. All three beta levels look good. First u/s doesn't show a fetal pole. Second u/s never finds heart beat. Miscarriage completed with medication.

- Try for Full Cycle, Round 3 - Poor response with only 2 follicles after microdose Lupron, increased from 350 to 450 Follistim and 150 Menopur. Convert to IUI. Lame counts, 15 million. BFN.

- Canceled The Final Full Cycle after estrogen priming with Ganirelix the month prior to retrieval. Starting at 450 Follistim and 150 Menopur. One follicle measured at final u/s. BFN.

- Crap. Diminished ovarian reserve at 39.

- Transfer one beautiful blastocyst from a donor egg. BFN. What. But this is DE, right??? BFN.

- DE FET canceled due to a cyst in January. Lots of Lupron for no good reason. We tried again for the FET in February. Another cyst. Finally cyst free and set for March. 50%-50% chance of pregnancy.

- BFP and a heartbeat followed by Giant SCH Scare the very next day. Last bleed was at 13 wks.

- Added marginal placenta previa to the mix at the 20 week level II ultrasound. Gah. A follow up appointment four weeks later shows the PP gone and the uterus growth resolved the issue.

- Welcome Baby Jay at 39+ weeks via scheduled repeat c-section. A boy. A boy!!

- Considering the future of our frozen embryos. Letting "Party of Four" sink in.

- Starting the process to find a family for our remaining embryos. Feeling perfect about it. UPDATE. That was a total lie. I am freaking the fuck out. UPDATE. I got this. UPDATE. Total melt down. FINAL UPDATE. Recovered, with a tender heart.

- Find a magnificent family to accept our remaining embryos. She is pregnant, first try. Joy.

- For the love of all that is holy, I am pregnant. We made this baby like animals. No RE involved.

- Explore the possibilities of Down Syndrome. Find a beautiful community fiercely dedicated to their children. We are prepared to welcome home a baby with Down Syndrome, but it was not meant to be us.

Welcome to my family: one from my old eggs and one from a donor. A bonus from my very old eggs and the Two Backed Monster. Irrelevant, huh? Joy.