Sunday, October 3, 2010

The return of the Hope Addict

I have been on the wagon for about a month now.  

I manage my hope.  I sip from it only on occasion.  Gone are the two day benders where I gorge myself on hope.

My friend Pumpkin is an enabler.  Pumpkin nominated me for an award about hope.  I think it is the best encouragement we could all get.  

Look where all that bullshit hope got me - this side of happy.  Dammit, it feels so good to be happy after a long fucking ride of misery.  Stories I haven't even told.

Honestly, the first time I was nominated for something, I thought the person might be making fun of me.  I went by her house and thanked her for the attention.  I had another one of my shit shows going when she gave it to me.  I needed it.

We blog for ourselves and for anyone who can be bothered to read it.

This hope award is about encouragement.

This is how the encouragement business works: you just never know how badly someone might savor your comment.  Hell, I have a few comments memorized.  More than a few of you are a part of my history and I couldn't pick you out of a crowd of two.

Please drop by these award winning hope mongers and tell them they are not alone:

  1. Melanie at Falling in Hope

    This post does it for me.

    Holy shit, I didn't remember this was the name of her blog.  Nice one.)

  2. Andi at minimenow

    Please drop Andi some encouragement and invite her to come back to posting soon.

  3. The Unknown Reader.

    Are you a reader on a blog where you don't comment? 
    I can't add your link.

    This is just a place holder where I wanted to put your blog.  It took me less than 2 minutes to create it.  Go ahead,  create your own.

    If you are up for it, please leave your comment here or some other blog where you feel more at home.  Anonymous, this means you too.

    My guess is that your hope will explode with a little more exchange.

Thank you Pumpkin.  I hope you are well.  Bonne nuit.


  1. It certainly is good to have friends around who understand when times get rough.

  2. You are truly inspiring, Roccie. (And thanks for not Rickrolling us.)

  3. You are my shero. Again and again.

  4. Amen for hope. (The occasional sip keeps us going).

  5. Hope = courage. You have tons.
    And you have eyes on the world that see differently than mine. I love what your eyes see, Roccie. Thank you for sharing on your blog, and in your amazing comments. I'm sorry to be so forward, but you are wonderful!
    Thank you.

  6. Hope - we couldn't wake up in the morning without it. If I get to the dark place where I will end this journey and live childless - the only thing that will get me through it is hope. Hope that life will get better and will bring me rewards I cannot yet fathom. Hope that I can love nices and nephews. Hope that I will find peace. It's all we've got.

    Augusta is so right ... hope is courage.

    And I thank you from the bottom of my heart for your encouragement and your nomination. I'm hoping desperately for myself right now and for all my IF friends out there. And I am sooooo glad that you are feeling happy and hopeful. 'Bout time!

    I noticed on another blog that you were feeling like you were losing your IF cred by being hopeful. I think that shouldn't be true. As far as I can tell, ALL of us in IF blogland are DEFINED by our hope - that's why we keep trying and keep writing and reading.

  7. I totally missed this post until just now! And I was thinking this very morning: "Hmm, I wonder whether Roccie is going to accept her Hope Award nomination." So glad you did, and thanks for the shout-out, my dear. A few of your comments are among those I keep in my head for when I need a little love. Thank you for being one of the people who has made this community really meaningful for me. Lovelovelove.