Milestones. What would I do without you? How else could I parse out my pregnancy into little mountains of achievement. Our appointment with the RE went well today, but I am already setting my eyes on the next milestone of Getting The Hell Out of the First Trimester.
The subchorionic hematoma is still there, but it sounds like this is to be expected. I have not had any bleeding worth mentioning since the original event. The hematoma is larger than it was last week, but does not appear to be collecting new blood. It has clotted itself off and this makes my RE happy.
She said one thing that really stuck with me. I had prepared my Hematoma WTF questionnaire from Dr. Google. I was running through my checklist of questions when she clarified anything I find online just doesn't apply to my case. You can find SCH information online, but this is an IVF SCH. Different ballgame with much, much gentler rules.
She got me good. I dropped my interrogation (I wasn't sure I understood the answers anyhow) and realized I was there to talk about the baby.
The baby, right? See how I am way into this post and I forget to mention the fact we have a heartbeat and firmly anchored baby? Exactly how my visit went today.
I don't want to live like this, in this baby-as-an-afterthought world. I am going to reinvent myself.
I am eager to get out of the first trimester to see the miscarriage rate drop, but I am going to try to frame it differently in my mind. I can finally tell my nieces. I will have a steadier stomach. I can get people to bring me milkshakes without having to say a word.
The 2nd trimester will be a mighty time.
Please go and welcome baby Lola to our beautiful planet and her beautiful family. Momma Rosie can you even believe it? She is here and she is healthy and she is yours and you are hers. So much joy!
So excited about the heartbeat and that the SCH is under control.
ReplyDeleteYeah! I think infertility really does scar us in so many ways that we forget what being pregnant is truly about. I'm hoping you feel ready to reinvent yourself in the second trimester! Congrats things are going well :-) (Tippy)
ReplyDeleteHang in there Roccie! Happy Easter to you....
ReplyDeleteMmmm...milkshakes...and baby-as-a-first-thought...lots to look forward to and to feel happy about...step by step day by day breath by breath...thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteLove,
Maddy
yaay that sch is under control and that everything is a-okay!! hoping that the weeks go by very quickly so that you can get out of the 1T and breathe a bigger sigh of relief. lol, i've gone in to my OB many a time ready to interrogate on whatever topic is on my mind at the moment, and then i get foiled very quickly each time :o) xoxo.
ReplyDeleteI hope the reinvention is a success. I look forward to you being totally carefree, skipping around and hey, finally getting rid of the sharps in the garage!
ReplyDeleteYeah, I hear you.
ReplyDeleteJust curious: how does the IVF SCH differ?
You are a beautiful writer.
ReplyDeleteYAY for a heartbeat!!
ReplyDeleteWhat a great mantra: baby-as-a-forethought. I definitely got caught up in the worry and feel like I missed a few weeks of my pregnancy - hope you don't mind if I just on your reinvention bandwagon! Yay for focusing on strong and healthy baby.
ReplyDeleteIs there something I can say to ease those 5 weeks? I don't think so, really. But I will give it my darndest, to be sure. All you need to do is one step in front of the other, one day and then the next. We will string all of those days up together, and it will be from here to 13 weeks. And then you will feel a bit safer.
ReplyDeleteIt's insidious as hell, isn't it. I'll start feeling confident and contemplate maybe telling someone about the little owlet in my ute, and the next minute I feel a weird sensation in that area and my mind is already at the D&C. Damn frontal lobe.
So, we both have homework to do. The homework is:
When panicked thoughts strike, it's a reminder to breathe and love up the little bean in our bellies (that last one came from Foxy).
Sending you warm hugs, dear woman. Glad your SCH is quiet and baby's heart is beating strong.
This is the best post ever. I, too, am anxious for you to glide into the second T. But for now, let's focus on that beautiful heartbeat in your belly... your baby. Beautiful little baby Roccette.
ReplyDeleteI am so happy for you!
Half way into your post I realised... how is the baby?? Ahh.. gotta keep your focus on the bub as much as you can. Let your RE focus on any issues surrounding the H. Now in your first Tri, dont forget to enjoy the sight of your knees, tieing up your own shoelaces, and boobs that dont get tangled when you eat. You can be worried and still happy and excited...xo
ReplyDeleteSo happy for you & relieved to hear the good news! Also hoping this next several months go by smoothly and before you know it you're holding that precious baby ((hugs))
ReplyDeleteSo glad for the good news. And hoping that you will soon get to enjoy the 2nd trimester!
ReplyDeleteYeah, let's get you into that next trimester already! I hear you - milestones are fabulous. :)
ReplyDeleteWhy are IVF SCHs not as bad as regular ones? I haven't heard of this, but if true...fabulously good news! :))
May the next 5 weeks pass faster than a dog fart under the table.
ReplyDeleteSeriously, you're almost out of the 1st-tri-woods.
healthy heartbeat and firmly anchored baby...!!! My heart's so big for you right now. What an amazing sight it must have been to see it all there nestled in safely. xxx
ReplyDeleteYeah 2T here comes roccie! If i was there i"d bring u a shake.
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