Apologies for the quiet across all fronts. I am here, quietly reading, quietly freaking and managing.
I have graduated over to the OB as of last week. OB is a different story on the subchorionic hematoma than the Good RE. I am trying not to let it worry me by classifying it as a change of leadership. OB is in this for a much longer run and her objectives are quite different than the Good RE. I feel like a smell a little "not on my watch" perhaps?
Sadly, I have lost my title as a Run of the Mill pregnancy. I was really proud of that too. I am back in the (flashing neon letters?) High Risk group for this pregnancy.
The SCH is smaller as of last week. OB is very pleased with the downward trend, but then touched hot white wires to my heart when she talked about what can be the outcome from the SCH of my size. A gruesome miscarriage where the entire placenta shears off is the least of my worries. It sounds like it is more likely to interfere with blood flow and growth, taking the heartbeat away from my baby. Second trimester enjoys an increased risk to rupture my bag of waters where the SCH weakened the placenta.
I am back in the office again next week. OB wants to see me once a week. Never a good sign when an OB isn't stingy with her ultrasounds, is it? I will be 11 weeks when I return next week. Counting down to 13 weeks.
I am doing ok for the most part. I haven't been eating the pregnancy websites up but I also have not been Dr. Googling the SCH. In fact, I try not to think of the baby much unless it is in active, palm-sweaty begging prayer for a healthy outcome. I read that back and it sounds pretty pathetic, but all is well.
All my thoughts and prayers are with our Mothers In Progress tomorrow.
You don't need a baby in your crib or in your belly to be a Momma.
All my love and support on Mother's Day.