I am disappointed with an extended investment in Lupron for no good reason. Aside from not reaching the ultimate goal, I have some petty reasons too.
Hair loss. I can see into my hairline. Even my stylist notices it and she is an educated professional; trained to tell people they look good no matter what. She rejected years of discipline to confirm the truth. I am shedding like a banshee.
Sometimes it is a field mouse sized hair ball in my drain when I shower. Other times, I get a proper chipmunk. Shitballs.
I used to have a really short hair cut. Boy short and darling, darling, darling. But I was young. And thin. Now I am not so young and wearing my fat jeans thanks to my schedule in 2010:
- FET #1 Miscarriage,
- IVF Cancel #1,
- IVF Cancel #2,
- Failed Fresh DE #1,
- DE FET Cancel #1 and
- eating cookies for breakfast cause I just gave up.
The Year of the Take Home Baby has 12 months. Back in for labs and ultrasound next week to see about next month. Dammit.
I am really disappointed but not crushed. Is it the meds or is it just not the right time? I don't know.